It was raining when I left my flat for work.... It didn't help to cheer me up.. I was feeling so desolate and alone-and no, this isn't one of those why am I alone? kind of posts, its more like, I don't feel like I'm where I'm meant to be in my walk with God. I struggle with things that I feel like I should have overcome by now and I was down as I walked under the drizzling rain to the bus stop.
I stood at the bus stop- still having my pity party and wondering why I felt like I could never get to be at the centre of God's will. I looked up and there was this man carrying his daughter to the bus stop; he was carrying his daughter, her bag, holding the umbrella to prevent her getting wet- and she wasn't. He, on the other hand wasn't faring too well- his trousers and his shirt sleeves were completely wet but his daughter didn't have a drop of rain of her- not even on her little white socks.
As he set her carefully down in the bus stop, a word came to me 'Let God carry you'. It suddenly became clear to me- I'm trying to become a better Christian in my own ability- trying to change using my own strength and it would never work!! I need to learn to let God carry me- to trust in His strength and rely on His grace- the divine enablement of the Holy spirit to do those things that I cannot do on my own- I need to learn- I'm not sure how yet but I spend time in His word and in conversations to Him. It will take time, I know but I choose to let God carry me!
xoxo
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